weh. this makes him look at mizu with wide, surprised eyes, his head snapping up even if it hurts. ]
You -- no, I'm sorry, how -- how unimaginably awful people were to you, you were a child, and -
[ there's a beat. the thought register, and his fingers curl hard in the blankets in his lap, eyes cast down. over his head, his thoughts swirl to water, a frigid ocean. the guilt is immeasurable, the awful horror of every dead face, of the contract itself, of the blood that life put upon his hands. of the child they tried so hard to keep alive, of the cruelty of that maid looking at a baby, an infant (and an infant who has grown into one of taair's favorite people besides, and how devastating it felt to understand what the contract was. ]
...we tried to save you. [ very, very quietly, almost hoarse. And we failed. ] I'm so sorry.
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weh. this makes him look at mizu with wide, surprised eyes, his head snapping up even if it hurts. ]
You -- no, I'm sorry, how -- how unimaginably awful people were to you, you were a child, and -
[ there's a beat. the thought register, and his fingers curl hard in the blankets in his lap, eyes cast down. over his head, his thoughts swirl to water, a frigid ocean. the guilt is immeasurable, the awful horror of every dead face, of the contract itself, of the blood that life put upon his hands. of the child they tried so hard to keep alive, of the cruelty of that maid looking at a baby, an infant (and an infant who has grown into one of taair's favorite people besides, and how devastating it felt to understand what the contract was. ]
...we tried to save you. [ very, very quietly, almost hoarse. And we failed. ] I'm so sorry.