[for what it's worth, she won't be getting the sense that mizu resents any of it. it probably feels more like the emotional equivalent of someone stubbornly digging their heels into the ground, dismissing an option before even considering it.
but... well, shadowheart's trying? offered a little bit of herself, too. so. after a moment, mizu sighs.]
... Just so you know, I did consider it once. A different path. Took the leap, as you so aptly put it. But that was a mistake I won't be repeating again.
Attempting it and having it fail is worse in some ways than never attempting. [she came here with the mindset, trying to put something back that was already broken because she tried and lost her life for it.]
I took one risk and slighted my goddess, thinking I might have the protection of another one for doing so. Instead, I wound up here. I could step outside this place with all of my goals and intentions and instantly be smited once again. I really don't know the answer.
I'm not sure there are. I do have a little bit of a ticking clock that would start to run if I stepped too far away from the place I left. [this awkward conversation she keeps having to have this week about how she never mentioned her terminal brain parasite.]
But regardless, even if god could help me with that, there are things I feel I must do and people who don't need to be alive anymore. [she gotta go massacre every sharran but it's for a nice and good reason so it's fine.]
It's not something I'm too worried about, but it would be quickly fatal without the protective spells I had access to at home.
[so, yeah. it's maybe something she could have asked gabriel to help with, but that wouldn't help her friends.]
I never thought you would disapprove. I don't see why being a good person ought to exclude removing a few from existence whose departure will make the world a better place.
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[for what it's worth, she won't be getting the sense that mizu resents any of it. it probably feels more like the emotional equivalent of someone stubbornly digging their heels into the ground, dismissing an option before even considering it.
but... well, shadowheart's trying? offered a little bit of herself, too. so. after a moment, mizu sighs.]
... Just so you know, I did consider it once. A different path. Took the leap, as you so aptly put it. But that was a mistake I won't be repeating again.
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[actually she really does.]
Attempting it and having it fail is worse in some ways than never attempting. [she came here with the mindset, trying to put something back that was already broken because she tried and lost her life for it.]
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[sighing.]
I took one risk and slighted my goddess, thinking I might have the protection of another one for doing so. Instead, I wound up here. I could step outside this place with all of my goals and intentions and instantly be smited once again. I really don't know the answer.
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[dryly.]
... But there may be other options available to you. If what Yves said was true.
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But regardless, even if god could help me with that, there are things I feel I must do and people who don't need to be alive anymore. [she gotta go massacre every sharran but it's for a nice and good reason so it's fine.]
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[I SEE... absolutely hilarious of her to only drop this lore on endgame week.]
I see. Well, if there are people who must die, then who am I to dissuade from going down that path?
[can you imagine? the hypocrisy.]
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[so, yeah. it's maybe something she could have asked gabriel to help with, but that wouldn't help her friends.]
I never thought you would disapprove. I don't see why being a good person ought to exclude removing a few from existence whose departure will make the world a better place.