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[it would honestly be very understandable if he went for it. even if 1) it would not end well and 2) she would drag him back to murder him herself if he got himself executed. but it's fine? it's fine. (beeguns you if this is a death flag)]
... So because you've grown and no longer have a child's imagination, it's harder for you to just believe you have the means to kill it. Even though you know that's what you need to do to fight back against it.
[too bad they can't bring the baby curse back with them.]
Why is it so fixated on your group?
[is it out for revenge...]
... So because you've grown and no longer have a child's imagination, it's harder for you to just believe you have the means to kill it. Even though you know that's what you need to do to fight back against it.
[too bad they can't bring the baby curse back with them.]
Why is it so fixated on your group?
[is it out for revenge...]
... Quite. Just as much as a shock for him, I suppose.
[too bad for him that the dead came after his ass.
watching your roommate get stabbed as the final touch on an already terrible weekend cannot be good, though. especially as someone who comes from a relatively normal life, murder clowns aside. man. the regret is here to stay.]
If it brings you any comfort, he was already dead to begin with. Now he's with the rest of our lost souls... Who are not so lost anymore, as of last week.
[too bad for him that the dead came after his ass.
watching your roommate get stabbed as the final touch on an already terrible weekend cannot be good, though. especially as someone who comes from a relatively normal life, murder clowns aside. man. the regret is here to stay.]
If it brings you any comfort, he was already dead to begin with. Now he's with the rest of our lost souls... Who are not so lost anymore, as of last week.
I know. It's the simple things that are getting me now. Seen too much of the far-fetched to do anything but play along.
Have you tried? Messaging him. It.
Have you tried? Messaging him. It.
Me either. Can't figure where to start. Hi, howyadoin, how the fuck did this happen on your watch?
[omnipotent his ass.
But ah.]
...It's a consideration, of course. Opens up a good deal of possibilities. Might change a fair few minds. [Seems a touch too good to be true if he's being honest.] You giving it a think, Mizu?
[omnipotent his ass.
But ah.]
...It's a consideration, of course. Opens up a good deal of possibilities. Might change a fair few minds. [Seems a touch too good to be true if he's being honest.] You giving it a think, Mizu?
[He huffs a little.]
Oh, I know. It's a shame that it still looks like a final blow. And feels like one.
[He looks to her, mouth twisted to one side. Maybe he feels like he lost three rounds with a Jeep Cherokee, but the blunt words do help. Small things.]
...Thank you, though, Mizu. I'll be all right.
[Will you?]
Oh, I know. It's a shame that it still looks like a final blow. And feels like one.
[He looks to her, mouth twisted to one side. Maybe he feels like he lost three rounds with a Jeep Cherokee, but the blunt words do help. Small things.]
...Thank you, though, Mizu. I'll be all right.
[Will you?]
In one sense, sure. In another, could you stop in the middle of fighting for your life and convince yourself to do something completely fucking insane? [He waves his hand.] It's fine, it's not like I understand all the logistics either. I don't know why anything does or doesn't work, where that kind of power comes from. I just know that it is.
[There is just so little explanation for anything. He suspects he'll never find out, either. There's cosmic forces at play all right, but not ones that care to make an introduction. He could envy Shadowheart and Anders that.]
Because we hurt it, and we gave it the slip. I don't think It ever knew what it was like for the food to bite back. It didn't much like it.
[There is just so little explanation for anything. He suspects he'll never find out, either. There's cosmic forces at play all right, but not ones that care to make an introduction. He could envy Shadowheart and Anders that.]
Because we hurt it, and we gave it the slip. I don't think It ever knew what it was like for the food to bite back. It didn't much like it.
That sounds like a fine start to me.
[axolotl, wake up. you fucked up big time!
shaking her head in response to his question, though.]
I have no interest in changing my past, or abandoning my vow. [hope all the alternate timeline mizus are having a better one, though. even if it's extremely weird to even consider.] ... But I was wondering what you thought about it. For yourself.
[he is still very much stuck with a murderous clown situation?]
[axolotl, wake up. you fucked up big time!
shaking her head in response to his question, though.]
I have no interest in changing my past, or abandoning my vow. [hope all the alternate timeline mizus are having a better one, though. even if it's extremely weird to even consider.] ... But I was wondering what you thought about it. For yourself.
[he is still very much stuck with a murderous clown situation?]
[Oh ariana mizu...we're really in it now
Very glad it's not emotionshare week rn. He'd have blasted out some truly wretched vibes. By late afternoon all he's got left are his smokes, the salt and surf of the beach, and the impending company padding over the sand.]
Three. Fuck me, what the hell are we supposed to do with that many?
Very glad it's not emotionshare week rn. He'd have blasted out some truly wretched vibes. By late afternoon all he's got left are his smokes, the salt and surf of the beach, and the impending company padding over the sand.]
Three. Fuck me, what the hell are we supposed to do with that many?
[haha, yeah... yeah........
it's pretty telling that mizu is holding onto her phone in a death grip, sometimes glancing at the last texts from ramiel like there's further information to be gleamed from them... but, obviously, there ain't shit to be found there besides a short list of where they all died.]
The same thing we always do. We focus, and we figure things out.
it's pretty telling that mizu is holding onto her phone in a death grip, sometimes glancing at the last texts from ramiel like there's further information to be gleamed from them... but, obviously, there ain't shit to be found there besides a short list of where they all died.]
The same thing we always do. We focus, and we figure things out.
Sure fucking hope so. Hard enough to narrow down just one as is. [Richie scoffs, shaking his head and pulling a drag on his cigarette. It does little to soothe him.] ...Did you know Yves took an apple?
He did. Picked the one that can cure illness, of course. Told me he was sorry he couldn't catch Claude in time.
[Though whether Claude needed it was another matter.]
...I said to him not to spread it around too much. That kind of thing can put a target on your back. I hope to god I wasn't right.
[Though whether Claude needed it was another matter.]
...I said to him not to spread it around too much. That kind of thing can put a target on your back. I hope to god I wasn't right.
[He laughs a little at that.]
See, that's what I like about you, Mizu. Never a word minced.
[Whereas he can't stop expanding on the thought. To each their own.
His mouth thins though. It's a touchy train of thought. He hasn't finished riding it yet, the routes still percolating.]
Oh, I'm thinking all right. I'd need some idea of the parameters. What is or isn't possible and how it gets done. [He looks down. Away, gaze distant.] ...Depends how far back I'd have to rewind the clock to change things. Just that last night? A couple days before? Turn up on an old friend's doorstep before he takes a razor to his wrists, stop him from skipping the trip?
Or hell, take it back to when we were kids? [He bites the inside of his lip. Chuckling again, though mirthlessly now.] Before the first batch even bit it?
It's hard not to feel like you're cheating someone, if you're not trying to save everyone. It's also a good way to drive yourself bugshit.
See, that's what I like about you, Mizu. Never a word minced.
[Whereas he can't stop expanding on the thought. To each their own.
His mouth thins though. It's a touchy train of thought. He hasn't finished riding it yet, the routes still percolating.]
Oh, I'm thinking all right. I'd need some idea of the parameters. What is or isn't possible and how it gets done. [He looks down. Away, gaze distant.] ...Depends how far back I'd have to rewind the clock to change things. Just that last night? A couple days before? Turn up on an old friend's doorstep before he takes a razor to his wrists, stop him from skipping the trip?
Or hell, take it back to when we were kids? [He bites the inside of his lip. Chuckling again, though mirthlessly now.] Before the first batch even bit it?
It's hard not to feel like you're cheating someone, if you're not trying to save everyone. It's also a good way to drive yourself bugshit.
[Yeah...yeah........]
Much too kind. [A beat.] Granted, he'd already spilled to a fair few folks. Off the top of my head: Uruha and Saber, Lucas, Anders and Shadowheart. And I believe JQ and Bas know now, but I don't know if they were aware before today.
Something to keep in mind. Not that it's a definitive motive. Especially since motive barely seems to matter most of the time.
[And it's not a list he likes. That's the other thing about dwindling numbers. Your suspects become as dear as your victims, and pointing fingers gets harder and harder to do.]
Much too kind. [A beat.] Granted, he'd already spilled to a fair few folks. Off the top of my head: Uruha and Saber, Lucas, Anders and Shadowheart. And I believe JQ and Bas know now, but I don't know if they were aware before today.
Something to keep in mind. Not that it's a definitive motive. Especially since motive barely seems to matter most of the time.
[And it's not a list he likes. That's the other thing about dwindling numbers. Your suspects become as dear as your victims, and pointing fingers gets harder and harder to do.]
[she nods, frowning. you're welcome...
at least she knew claude was a dead man before uruha and saber killed him right in front of their doorstep, so it's fine. anticipated loss and all that.]
You'll see him again. [said like it's a guaranteed.] ... But first, we have three more weeks of this program to get through. Do try to stay all right until then.
[or else. she will fucking throttle him if he dies, thank you.]
at least she knew claude was a dead man before uruha and saber killed him right in front of their doorstep, so it's fine. anticipated loss and all that.]
You'll see him again. [said like it's a guaranteed.] ... But first, we have three more weeks of this program to get through. Do try to stay all right until then.
[or else. she will fucking throttle him if he dies, thank you.]
So you insulted the pride of some sort of demonic creature by refusing the lay down and die. And now it's come back for its pound of flesh.
[absolutely hateful. but, since this is before yves shared the alternate timeline info:]
What do you intend to do?
[because it sounds like he'll just die immediately if he goes home.]
[absolutely hateful. but, since this is before yves shared the alternate timeline info:]
What do you intend to do?
[because it sounds like he'll just die immediately if he goes home.]
[... a small huff, almost a laugh. but completely devoid of humor.]
Can you imagine it? You, as you are now, but in the body of a child.
[it would be funny in a very terrible way, if the rest of it wasn't so... bleak...]
Personally, I'd start by prioritizing your own life. There's no shame in that. [you can't help anyone if you don't save yourself, anyway??? be selfish.] But you have two more weeks to think about it. It's only one more option to consider.
Can you imagine it? You, as you are now, but in the body of a child.
[it would be funny in a very terrible way, if the rest of it wasn't so... bleak...]
Personally, I'd start by prioritizing your own life. There's no shame in that. [you can't help anyone if you don't save yourself, anyway??? be selfish.] But you have two more weeks to think about it. It's only one more option to consider.
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[Puts them in the Inbetween. We're getting existential out here. Observes the exit disappearing and swears under his breath.]
Wonderful! Just lovely. I was thinking what this place needed was a void. Think any of these cubes pick up a direct line to God?
Wonderful! Just lovely. I was thinking what this place needed was a void. Think any of these cubes pick up a direct line to God?
Again?
[Did she say that out loud?]
Then I'm sorry to take you on a repeat tour. Remember the way out?
[Did she say that out loud?]
Then I'm sorry to take you on a repeat tour. Remember the way out?
[Ditto. His own face splits into a muted grin.]
Big shit in a little body. Watch out, world.
[That would be a hell of a time if it weren't a wretched last resort.]
You're right, of course. Maybe keeping it simple is the best way to go about it. I'll write our dear Lord about it, see if I can't get a little godly input.
[But also, he's a little tired of spinning the matter around his mind. It hasn't led to anything productive, and he's tired of putting the spotlight all on him.]
...Mizu, I never asked what happened to you, did I? [He looks to her, the question digging a line between his brows.] I mean, I can guess, but I never got the full picture.
Big shit in a little body. Watch out, world.
[That would be a hell of a time if it weren't a wretched last resort.]
You're right, of course. Maybe keeping it simple is the best way to go about it. I'll write our dear Lord about it, see if I can't get a little godly input.
[But also, he's a little tired of spinning the matter around his mind. It hasn't led to anything productive, and he's tired of putting the spotlight all on him.]
...Mizu, I never asked what happened to you, did I? [He looks to her, the question digging a line between his brows.] I mean, I can guess, but I never got the full picture.
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