Me either. Can't figure where to start. Hi, howyadoin, how the fuck did this happen on your watch?
[omnipotent his ass.
But ah.]
...It's a consideration, of course. Opens up a good deal of possibilities. Might change a fair few minds. [Seems a touch too good to be true if he's being honest.] You giving it a think, Mizu?
shaking her head in response to his question, though.]
I have no interest in changing my past, or abandoning my vow. [hope all the alternate timeline mizus are having a better one, though. even if it's extremely weird to even consider.] ... But I was wondering what you thought about it. For yourself.
[he is still very much stuck with a murderous clown situation?]
See, that's what I like about you, Mizu. Never a word minced.
[Whereas he can't stop expanding on the thought. To each their own.
His mouth thins though. It's a touchy train of thought. He hasn't finished riding it yet, the routes still percolating.]
Oh, I'm thinking all right. I'd need some idea of the parameters. What is or isn't possible and how it gets done. [He looks down. Away, gaze distant.] ...Depends how far back I'd have to rewind the clock to change things. Just that last night? A couple days before? Turn up on an old friend's doorstep before he takes a razor to his wrists, stop him from skipping the trip?
Or hell, take it back to when we were kids? [He bites the inside of his lip. Chuckling again, though mirthlessly now.] Before the first batch even bit it?
It's hard not to feel like you're cheating someone, if you're not trying to save everyone. It's also a good way to drive yourself bugshit.
[... a small huff, almost a laugh. but completely devoid of humor.]
Can you imagine it? You, as you are now, but in the body of a child.
[it would be funny in a very terrible way, if the rest of it wasn't so... bleak...]
Personally, I'd start by prioritizing your own life. There's no shame in that. [you can't help anyone if you don't save yourself, anyway??? be selfish.] But you have two more weeks to think about it. It's only one more option to consider.
[That would be a hell of a time if it weren't a wretched last resort.]
You're right, of course. Maybe keeping it simple is the best way to go about it. I'll write our dear Lord about it, see if I can't get a little godly input.
[But also, he's a little tired of spinning the matter around his mind. It hasn't led to anything productive, and he's tired of putting the spotlight all on him.]
...Mizu, I never asked what happened to you, did I? [He looks to her, the question digging a line between his brows.] I mean, I can guess, but I never got the full picture.
[nods. please do something about yourself, buddy. but also... hm.]
No. Though I don't make a secret of it.
[mizu may be secretive about a lot of things, but this is not one of them, at least. though the way she just says it is probably a bit too casual, considering...]
There was a fire. One that burned hot enough to consume an entire castle. [and it was kind of her own fault, but she refrains from saying this.] The building collapsed under its own weight while I was still inside.
It's more complicated than that. I could go back to minutes before I died, when the fire was set. Avoid it all together.
[and it should be an easy choice. it really should! but mizu looks down at her hand, slowly clenching it into a fist and then relaxing it like she's recalling her grip around something in particular.]
But I had one of the men I am sworn to kill right where I wanted him. He was at my complete mercy. Regardless of what I do to save my life, I must not let him escape with his.
[there's a reason why mizu was less "oh no i'm dead" and more "is that fucker also dead" right on w0. this fucking dumbass.]
[Fuck. It's not like he can convince her to just let this one go, huh?]
Do you have any idea of where he might have been before he got to where you had him? Maybe you can rewind things enough to corner him in a less flammable locale.
[he absolutely cannot. :) mizu will die on this hill! twice. she's already done it once, after all.]
On his way to storm a castle with an army of men armed with guns. [very dryly, like. the window of opportunity is just Bad.] And before that, I was... indisposed. For some months.
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Have you tried? Messaging him. It.
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[still feels real hecking weird to just slide into god's dms, though.
but also:]
... By the way, about what Yves said. What do you think?
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[omnipotent his ass.
But ah.]
...It's a consideration, of course. Opens up a good deal of possibilities. Might change a fair few minds. [Seems a touch too good to be true if he's being honest.] You giving it a think, Mizu?
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[axolotl, wake up. you fucked up big time!
shaking her head in response to his question, though.]
I have no interest in changing my past, or abandoning my vow. [hope all the alternate timeline mizus are having a better one, though. even if it's extremely weird to even consider.] ... But I was wondering what you thought about it. For yourself.
[he is still very much stuck with a murderous clown situation?]
CW: suicide mention
See, that's what I like about you, Mizu. Never a word minced.
[Whereas he can't stop expanding on the thought. To each their own.
His mouth thins though. It's a touchy train of thought. He hasn't finished riding it yet, the routes still percolating.]
Oh, I'm thinking all right. I'd need some idea of the parameters. What is or isn't possible and how it gets done. [He looks down. Away, gaze distant.] ...Depends how far back I'd have to rewind the clock to change things. Just that last night? A couple days before? Turn up on an old friend's doorstep before he takes a razor to his wrists, stop him from skipping the trip?
Or hell, take it back to when we were kids? [He bites the inside of his lip. Chuckling again, though mirthlessly now.] Before the first batch even bit it?
It's hard not to feel like you're cheating someone, if you're not trying to save everyone. It's also a good way to drive yourself bugshit.
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Can you imagine it? You, as you are now, but in the body of a child.
[it would be funny in a very terrible way, if the rest of it wasn't so... bleak...]
Personally, I'd start by prioritizing your own life. There's no shame in that. [you can't help anyone if you don't save yourself, anyway??? be selfish.] But you have two more weeks to think about it. It's only one more option to consider.
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Big shit in a little body. Watch out, world.
[That would be a hell of a time if it weren't a wretched last resort.]
You're right, of course. Maybe keeping it simple is the best way to go about it. I'll write our dear Lord about it, see if I can't get a little godly input.
[But also, he's a little tired of spinning the matter around his mind. It hasn't led to anything productive, and he's tired of putting the spotlight all on him.]
...Mizu, I never asked what happened to you, did I? [He looks to her, the question digging a line between his brows.] I mean, I can guess, but I never got the full picture.
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No. Though I don't make a secret of it.
[mizu may be secretive about a lot of things, but this is not one of them, at least. though the way she just says it is probably a bit too casual, considering...]
There was a fire. One that burned hot enough to consume an entire castle. [and it was kind of her own fault, but she refrains from saying this.] The building collapsed under its own weight while I was still inside.
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[Mizu.....]
I'm sorry. Christ almighty, that's a hellish way to go. How did that happen? You think you can hightail it out of there before the blaze kicks up?
[Unless she was a literal prisoner in there. Knowing her that's extremely likely, sorry to say.]
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[and it should be an easy choice. it really should! but mizu looks down at her hand, slowly clenching it into a fist and then relaxing it like she's recalling her grip around something in particular.]
But I had one of the men I am sworn to kill right where I wanted him. He was at my complete mercy. Regardless of what I do to save my life, I must not let him escape with his.
[there's a reason why mizu was less "oh no i'm dead" and more "is that fucker also dead" right on w0. this fucking dumbass.]
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[Fuck. It's not like he can convince her to just let this one go, huh?]
Do you have any idea of where he might have been before he got to where you had him? Maybe you can rewind things enough to corner him in a less flammable locale.
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On his way to storm a castle with an army of men armed with guns. [very dryly, like. the window of opportunity is just Bad.] And before that, I was... indisposed. For some months.
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Or the one that turns you into a worm. I would have no complaints if he met his end under the heel of someone's boots.
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See? Problem solved! Good thinking, Mizu!
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