We all should have thought a little more about it when we realized where, exactly she was coming from when the other two haven't been able to come over yet.
[ so it's not really anybody's fault. they all were caught unaware. ]
I will be the first to admit I won't hesitate to fight dirty. [ factual. they do not mind being up-front about that. ] It was the old one. That's how I ended up here. Picked a fight, got them to pay attention, and then they told me about this project and I happened to agree with the idea. You pretty much know the rest.
[ never quite saw eye to eye with count louis on that front. he doesn't necessarily like deceit or dirty tricks, but if he'd followed louis's "power is everything" ideology to a t himself, he obviously would have been fucked. ]
I try not to, anymore. [ just to clarify. gods are different. ]
... nothing too special, really. Nothing important like you guys. I think I was just trying to get my life together. It... wasn't going well, but it was getting a little better. And then I died.
Not the thing I wanted to have in common with you, Fidelio. [ deciding on things right at the end. ]
It was right after I died, yeah. They found me, and then when they didn't give me the answers I wanted I had to chase them down and force them to pay attention. I got tired of being ignored.
[ seeing those thoughts... yeah, understandable. ]
I was impatient by then because it'd been years of not getting answered. Why would I let them get away? Even if I never expected God to be an axolotl. But that was... a while now. Almost nine months ago? If you're counting our time here. God found me and told me about this project, I asked for my part in it, and then I found out God was retiring and appointing a new God not long after that.
Pretty much like my whole life, yeah. I grew up being told that if I prayed to God they'd listen but obviously that didn't pan out. Otherwise things would have been a lot better.
Yeah, that's organised religion for you. Keep people from actually fightin' back against the system responsible for their suffering by tellin' them all they've got to do is pray and pay their tithes and God'll take care of it.
[ this is not the topic they're supposed to be on, he just really hates the church ]
Reckon you were entitled to a good tail pull in that case.
Glad to hear all organized religion is the same everywhere. [ but I still wanted to try for her... it's a stray, half-connected thought before it gets sent elsewhere. ]
Here it feels less like that even though axogodtl bibles exist. Not that it makes it better because things are still dependent on a god, but you know. This one sounds a little more responsive than the last one at least. For better or worse.
Seems like it. [ but... ] We talk on and off. Not nearly as much as they talk to the girls but part of that is on them and part of it is on me. Half the time I want to talk to them they're unavailable but then when they do have a break, I don't. And I'm not rearranging my own plans just because.
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We all should have thought a little more about it when we realized where, exactly she was coming from when the other two haven't been able to come over yet.
[ so it's not really anybody's fault. they all were caught unaware. ]
I will be the first to admit I won't hesitate to fight dirty. [ factual. they do not mind being up-front about that. ] It was the old one. That's how I ended up here. Picked a fight, got them to pay attention, and then they told me about this project and I happened to agree with the idea. You pretty much know the rest.
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[ never quite saw eye to eye with count louis on that front. he doesn't necessarily like deceit or dirty tricks, but if he'd followed louis's "power is everything" ideology to a t himself, he obviously would have been fucked. ]
What were you doin' before this, anyway?
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... nothing too special, really. Nothing important like you guys. I think I was just trying to get my life together. It... wasn't going well, but it was getting a little better. And then I died.
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[ ... ]
What were you chasin' 'em down to talk about in the first place? Was that right after you died?
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Not the thing I wanted to have in common with you, Fidelio. [ deciding on things right at the end. ]
It was right after I died, yeah. They found me, and then when they didn't give me the answers I wanted I had to chase them down and force them to pay attention. I got tired of being ignored.
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[ sort of a wry half-smile. didn't really have regrets about dying, at least, just about things i should've done sooner.
anyway, he nods. ]
Sounds fair, would've proper pissed me off too if no one was answering my questions.
How long ago was that? And when did the old god get replaced by the new one?
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I was impatient by then because it'd been years of not getting answered. Why would I let them get away? Even if I never expected God to be an axolotl. But that was... a while now. Almost nine months ago? If you're counting our time here. God found me and told me about this project, I asked for my part in it, and then I found out God was retiring and appointing a new God not long after that.
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Yeah, that's organised religion for you. Keep people from actually fightin' back against the system responsible for their suffering by tellin' them all they've got to do is pray and pay their tithes and God'll take care of it.
[ this is not the topic they're supposed to be on, he just really hates the church ]
Reckon you were entitled to a good tail pull in that case.
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Here it feels less like that even though axogodtl bibles exist. Not that it makes it better because things are still dependent on a god, but you know. This one sounds a little more responsive than the last one at least. For better or worse.
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Mostly worse, seems like.
How much have you interacted with the new one?
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Seems like it. [ but... ] We talk on and off. Not nearly as much as they talk to the girls but part of that is on them and part of it is on me. Half the time I want to talk to them they're unavailable but then when they do have a break, I don't. And I'm not rearranging my own plans just because.